This week’s Torah portion
hits me on a rather emotional level. At first glance, it’s a double portion focused
on impurity – from that of childbirth or from a peculiar disease known as tzara’at,
which is a scaly affliction that affects both people and inanimate objects,
even houses. On a superficial level, this reading is about exclusion, about
determining who has to be quarantined away from the rest of the camp. Today,
though, as we’re starting to discuss how we might return to physical activities
like services and educational sessions in the Temple, it reads very
differently.
Yes, I appreciate that in
order to relate this week’s reading to our current predicament that I have to
rather gloss over the concept of impurity from childbirth. To do so is not to
ignore that part of Torah, which I believe demonstrates once again Torah’s
concern about uncontrolled blood loss. The difference between the blood
impurity of childbirth and the impurity of the carrier of tzara’at,
though, is important – the mother can only transfer impurity where the carrier
of tzara’at can transfer the disease itself. It is almost as if Torah is
talking about levels of risk of transference, and my focus this evening is on
that second level.
Last year, when I spoke
on Tazria-Metzorah, I spoke of the loneliness of enforced isolation, an
isolation that we were all still somewhat in shock about at the time. I spoke
of the fact that Torah doesn’t inform us what to do while in isolation, it just
tells us when to isolate and when one can come out of isolation. Torah’s
interest is not on individual people but on the entire people, on the camp, so
what a person does in that time of isolation is essentially up to them. Last year,
I spoke of the three stages of isolation – shock, acceptance, and return. Shock
is what we experienced in March of 2020 when we suddenly had to all isolate,
acceptance is what happened in the months after, and now, as more and more
members of our community are vaccinated, we start to consider return.
I recently read someone asking
why God chose to use just one group of people – the Levites – are priests… why
create an exclusive club and thus a hierarchy between the people? Many people,
including early Reform Jews, abhor the concept of priesthood for its notion of
intermediaries between God and the people, for the idea that some people could
be more elevated for special service than others. I don’t see that. To
understand why the priests were needed, we have to go back to preparations for the
Revelation at Sinai, in Exodus 19. There, God informs Moses to put up a
boundary around the mountain so that people do not touch it and die. In the
following chapter, the people are so terrified of God’s awesomeness that they
ask Moses to speak to God on their behalf, saying, “Do not have God speak with
us or we will die” (Ex. 20:19). Later in Torah, in the portion of Shemini that
we read only recently, Aaron’s sons Nadav and Avihu offer an improper fire and
are immediately killed. Since God is beyond the human realm, the closer one
comes to God, the closer one comes to danger on a human level, in other words,
closeness to God risks human death. A rather trite comparison might be
electricity – it is awesome, powerful, it illuminates our lives, but if we
touch it, we risk death. God’s realm is not the human realm, so to draw close
to God means to risk losing contact with the human realm. So, the priests are
not there for control, they are the safety specialists – they’re the people
whose specific task it is to allow the people to draw as close as possible to
God without getting dangerously close.
I understand, of course,
that Rabbis aren’t priests, especially now there is no Tabernacle or Temple to
which people might regularly bring sacrifices. Nonetheless, as our community
starts to explore how we might slowly return to activities in the same physical
space, I find much sympathy with the priests in this week’s reading, especially
when it comes not to blood impurity but to disease impurity. The priest is
responsible for balancing sacred concerns with physical concerns. They want to
bring the person back into the camp but they have to be absolutely certain that
there is no risk of contamination of the larger community. This is not an issue
of control or hierarchy, it’s an issue of public safety. The priest, who
normally protects the individual from sacred danger by drawing too close to
God, suddenly finds themselves protecting the entire community from physical
danger. Their sphere of responsibility has widened enormously, in a similar way
to how the High Priest atones on behalf of the entire people on Yom Kippur. I
wonder – and I realize I may very well be projecting onto the text here – if the
priest is afraid of the harm that might come from their decision if their
assessment is wrong in any way? Perhaps that’s why the text goes into so much
detail as to how to make the observation – so that the priest is guided through
that awesome and terrifying process. In a similar way, I guess, that’s why Temple
Beth Shalom has a Reopening Committee that is addressing how we all might
return physically – so that the responsibility does not fall on one person.
The reality is, though,
that I am afraid. I’m afraid of us coming back together and people not being
able to sing in services or hug one another for a long time, resulting in them
being really excited to return and then actually really disappointed at how
services feel for a while. I’m afraid that we’ll take precautions but still
become a source for someone in our community getting sick, or worse. And at the
same time, I’m afraid for something that Torah does not concern itself with –
with the feelings of extended isolation and loneliness of members of our community.
What the priests have in this week’s reading, and what I feel at the moment, is
a sense of awesome responsibility, in terms of awe being that reverential
feeling of fear and wonderment.
That feeling of awesome
responsibility cannot limit action, though. At some point, the priest has to
make the call as to whether or not the person must stay physically away from
others or whether they can return. That is where I believe this week’s reading
is incredibly sensitive, because after the assessment and the decision to let
someone return, Tazria-Metzorah provides a ritual for returning to the
community. I’ve started to wonder about this. When we return to Shabbat
services, what will our ritual be? It needs to be more than a Shehecheyanu. We’ve
become so used to ritualizing behavior around the wearing of masks or social
distancing that we need to be sure that that’s not our only rituals around
prayer. In this week’s reading, (specifically Lev. 14), the person returning
brings two live, clean birds, a cedar stick, a strip of crimson wool and some hyssop. An extraordinary ritual
follows that includes presentation of a guilt offering and a sin offering on
behalf of the person returning to communal life. Torah specifically then says, “vichiper
alav hakohen v’taheir – “thus shall the priest atone for him and he shall
be clean” (Lev. 14:20). Would we, as we consider returning to the community,
need to bring a guilt offering, a sin offering? Do we need atonement?
Maybe there is a place
for a guilt offering and a sin offering, for the times when we did not socially
distance, for tolerating a society so unequal that when the pandemic raged
through this country it was devastating for certain communities and not those
we lived in. Maybe we would need something in place of a guilt offering and a sin
offering for the times when we secretly did not keep best practice, did not
stay socially distanced, either for us individually or, as on Yom Kippur, on
behalf of all those in our community who erred in this way. And what would it
mean for atonement to be made for us? The root of the Hebrew word atonement is
return, return to the right way, return to connecting with God, return away
from previous modes of behavior. A ritual of return is surely necessary.
Perhaps it would include washing of hands as we walked into the Sanctuary, a
ritual of cleanliness but also a ritual of washing off the past. I have yet to create
the ritual, but our Torah reading this week definitely demonstrates what I profoundly
feel at the moment - the importance of some kind of ritual of return.
Once again, during the
pandemic, the Book of Leviticus has revealed itself not to be a dry list of
hierarchical responsibilities and arcana rituals but, rather, a text that is
extremely sensitive to balancing the physical and spiritual needs of the
community in the face of contamination and even death. What it shows us is that
the return to the physical community must be done very carefully, in measured
ways, and accompanied by some kind of ritual of return that allows us to
express physically what we are feeling as we slowly transition from isolation
to community.
The first phase is
isolation – shock – was sudden and we were unprepared. The second stage –
isolation – was extended and difficult. Now we slowly and carefully approach
the third stage – return. So, may our return to physical community be loving,
be deliberate, may it acknowledge and help work through our differing fears,
and may it ultimately help us return to God
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